hmm..

think.
think.
think..

hmm..im beginning to think that..
im over thinking at times..

hmm..

let me think about that..

wait..

there i go again..

haha..

aniwaes..
a couple of things coarsing through my head right now..
hmm..

the main phrase for this is " find yourself"..
not literally FIND yourself..
but..knowing who you are..

yeah..

i've been thinking long and hard on who i wanna be.

and i will work to the extreme to obtain it..
even if it means stepping out of my comfort zone..
even if it kills me..
i would die knowing i was nearly living my dream..

to my loving friend..
you must believe..
in yourself.and in me..
for us to go far..
im already believing..
dont stop believing now..
^_^
it only has just begun
please..

think positive.

i love you.

awoosh out!

*flushes mind..lets start afresh!!

green + orange = ????

today started out..
hmm..
pretty decent..
i mean..
typical school day..
suddenly..i forgot to do eng homework
*facepalms..

AWW MAN!!

how the hell did i forget that?!
crap..
neh..aniwaes..
finished the homework during eng lesson itself..
and after prayers meet mr star..
yeah..i guess..i kinda sweet talked..
and i got off the hook!!
yessa!

aniwaes..went home with my loving friend there..
and we took a ride one round on 962..
and yeah..we talked..
haha..
i was lookin at her chemistry textbook when i remembered the reaction..
the experiment today..
totally unexpected..
haha..
and we discussed the colour change of the experiment that shocked us both..

apparently..the mixture changes from orange to green..
i repeat.. ORANGE-GREEN..
wahahaha..

totally awesome..so..yeah
otw back home..
my loving friend here..
accidently popped my balloon doggeh..
wahahahha!! aww..it was so cute!!
and we talked to it..

i know i know..lame lah..
yeah..
but hey..its fun..

muahahahaha!!!

alrite..i think thats all from me..


tune in next time!

awoosh out!
i love my loving friend..
green + orange = (place answer here)

WOWZA!!

hey hey!

ouh guess what?

i finished unwrapping all my gifts and i..
i repeat..

I.. LOVE ALL MY GIFTS!!!

to the hoodies,the bears,the bracelets,the necklace,the bags,the keychains,adidas branded jackets,bags,wallets and most importantly the beautifull CARDS..

i love them all!!..

aniwaes..

put aside all those things..and let me talk about today..

well..today was a dream crusher..
hah..i mean seriously..

one teacher has finally given up hope..ON THE 2ND MONTH OF THE YEAR..

astagafirullah! class..u have done it this time..
thanks alot..
not only you've made a teacher gave up on us..
u even shattered the dreams of the other classmates..

hmm..physics..
*sigh..
ms F is not my favourite too..
but..she's all we've got..
for a chance to get through the O together..

like what mr star said..dont waste your money for one stupid paper..
when u fail,ur money is wasted..and its not ur money..its ur parents money,mind you..

i hope u guys buck up..
seriously..


aniwaes..IM SO SO SO SO TIRED!!!
i feel worn out! burn out!! EXHAUSTED!!
im so lethargic!!! -_-..
i need a whole weekend to get better..
-_-..

aww man..

awoosh out!!

my sweet 16.

SWEET!!!
TOTALLY AWESOME!!!
got loads and loads of presents!!
well..that's not important..

what's important is..

I HAD THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVAR!!!

THANKS TO MY BELOVED FAMILY!
AND OFCOURSE MY DEAR 'LOVING FRIEND' and MY BESTEST BEST FRIENDS!!

THANK YOU ALL FOR ATTENDING MY B.DAE PARTY!!

i hope u guys enjoyed urselves..^_^

'arifah- I LOVE THE GREEN HOODIE!!! AAAHHHHH!!!!! OMG!!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!! thanks for the UBER NICE CARD/frame..
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT SO SO MUCH!! THANK YOU!!! I LOVE YOU TOO!!!

kak ezrieen- KAKAK!! THANK YOU so much FOR COMING!! ^_^ HOPE YOU ENJOYED YOURSELF AT MY BIRTHDAY PARTY!!! COZ i DID..WAHAHAHAHA!! THANK YOU AGAIN!!! ^_^

zhao wei- DUDE!! I seriously love the card!! i love the pics u drew..kinda funny..
i love it alot!! thanks so much dude!!!

Ghaf- THANKS FOR THE COOLEST LOOKIN TIE EVAR DUDE!! i love it so much!!! ^_^ thanks for comin over and celebratin with me man.. i appreciate it loads!!

aman,dada,momo- GUYS!! I LVOE THE APPLE KEYCHAIN!!! ouh and the PHONE POUCH TOO!!! so nice!!! thank you for comin over and spendin a lil time to celebrate my b.dae!! love u guys!!

randolph,shipeng- HEY BRO'S!! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR COMIN TO CELEBRATE MY B.DAE PARTY!! HAHA!! THANK YOU GUYS..THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!

weijun- HEY MAN! THANKS FOR TAKING SOME TIME OFF YOUR BUSY TRAINING SCHEDULE for attending my party..i appreciate your presence loads man. THANK YOU!!

azilah- I LOVE THE GREEN BEAR!! OMG!!! WAHAHAHAA!! OUH AND THE BAND.. LOVE IT!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!!

aniwaes..

i still wont forget the birthday bash..
lol..good times..good times..
hehehe..
'arifah 'aqilah..
wahahaha.. thank you for..ehemm..
telling me something in the end never tell me anything and got bashed..
i love it..
wahahaha..

AWW MAN!! MASUK MATA!!!!!!! WADDUUUHH!!! SAKIT!!!

wahahaha.. thank you all once again for celebrating my birthday..

AWOOSH..now 16.. SIGNING OFF!!

^_^

GREEN HOODIE!!!! THANKS YOU!!

1444!

strange..

hmm..
i dont know..
i feel like..

there's something wrong about today..

hmm...
well..
i really dont know what it is but..
it sure got me in a twist for words..
i just cant explain it..

=/

aniwaes..

actualy wanna walk home today..
but then she was 'rushing to get home' so i was..
-_-..aww man..
but nevermind lah..

maybe next time awoosh..

aniwaes..i wanted to ask you my "alot" of questions..
today while we went home..
but it seems that something's bothering u again..
aww..man..

*sigh..
ouh well,maybe next time awoosh..

so sat in the bus..
did not utter a single word to her..
guess she was either tired/sleepy/headache/shut up lah awoosh/hmm..

well..it couldnt be the 4th one now would it?

im thinkin it was the 2nd one..
coz i was getting tired too..
for some strange reason..
i felt so tired i even had headache..

-_-..

i wanna..wait no..
i need to..wait no..
i must know what's been bothering you lately..
u need to clear ur mind u know?
stop dwelling on something..

like your book said..
dont dwell on something...and..yeah..i forgot the next part..
O_O..
man..

ouh well..

pls..

talk to me..
the silence i get from you..
it hurts me..
seriously..

awoosh out..

i need time..

OMG..i need time to think.

i need to think deeper..
i jsut need time to find out what actually went wrong..

AWW MAN!!!

what a dumb mistake..
WHAT EXACTLY DID I DO WRONG?!

*sigh..
i just..

i just dont know..

*Sigh..

bloody...

*sigh..

i just need some space to think..

_____________________________________________________


im sorry if i didnt reply u the way i use to..
or speak to you the way im supposed to..


its just that..
my mind was occupied..
i've made stupid dumb mistakes and i was trying to solve them..
and reflect on my stupid actions..

and then..
you..came along..

*sigh..

im sorry..

i just couldnt concentrate on you..
my mind was filled with uneasy thoughts..

its just so..
so..
*sigh..

im sorry if i disappoint you in any way..

please..
forgive me..

awoosh out..

I NEED MORE TIME!..to think..and reflect..

*sigh.. astagafirullah..

worst day evar!!

OMG..

today was like the worst day ever..
-_-

alot of anger here and there..
loads of disappointments around the place..
and *sigh..
cut long story short..

today was a terrible day..

after school,
went to RP with 4..
and..
i feel like somethings buggin her..
i just dont know what it is..

i asked a few questions and no reply..
so..i started to get abit angry lah..
coz u know..
hmm..
so..i said to myself..
fine.. if u dont want to talk to me..i wont talk to you..
so..just kept quiet and walked..

once found a place to do work..
sat down and began work..
pretend to not care where she went to..
*sigh..
while she was gone..
i reflected on what i did..and..tried to figure out what's on her mind..
while doing work..
i kept thinking about her..
and about today..

while i was thinking of her..
suddenly, i heard her voice.."hey are you angry?"
i smiled..looked back and said.. " im fine..nice to hear your voice again.welcome back"

then we went somewhere else and talked..
and talked..and talked..
she voiced out her problems to me..
and i was helping to solve those problems together with her..
^_^
thanks for sharing it all with me..

today ended off great..thanks to the talking session with 4..
^_^

i dont know if u trust me or not..
but i hope to gain your trust.
not at once, but slowly,through time..
any means possible..^_^

and..
those promises i've made..mark my words..
i'll fulfill them..

I PROMISE..

1444..

awoosh out!!

aww..someone's thinkin about me..

hehe..
sweet..

guess its the songs huh?
lol..

yeah.. the songs made me think about u too!..

haha weird i know..
^_^
lol..thanks for sharing the song..
haha..
its really nice..
and u know what?

you are stuck in my mind..
i couldnt think of anything else other than you when u first let me hear the song..
^_^..

shows how much i love you i guess..
^_^..

hope u love me too..

_________________________________________________

yesterday was a blast..despite those minor setbacks..

but yeah it was a great day indeed..

creds to 'arifah for taking the pics..

ouh and speaking of pictures..
OMG..
i was stunned when i heard that..
someone looked at it..

and i was..uhh..
scared? pretty much..

yeah..

ok..

but the best part of the day was the dinner at cavana with u..and the rest..
had the time of my life..
haha..

19-5= 14! woot..

i love you.

awoosh out!

14/2/2010..a day to remember..

thank you for going out with me..

i believed that this was the first time we actually went out the whole day..
just the two of us..

but i bet it would have been much better if das would have come with myrra..
-_-..

but hey..
thanks again for accompanying me for the whole day today..

__________________________________________________________


it started with her letting me read this book..
well..i cant remember the title of it..
but i think its a very good book..
and basically..it summarises all the things that you would do to feel happy and relaxed..
i think..

yeah..

great book..
aniwaes..

made our way to vivo at 10.40a.m..
i know..
early rite?
haha..yeah..
while we were on our way..
we shared stories..
both personal and general..
and it was all sad stroies..
so..i said..
hey,think positive..today is going to be a great day..i promise..

and so..it began..

reach vivo..went to the roof access and took pics..
hehe..
and guess what.. she just took 18 pics then her memory card for her camera was totally full..
i was like -_-|||
OMG!!!..
but anywaes..
she deleted some of the 'un-important' ones..
and the rest was..rather..precious..
to both of us actually..
bought mandarin orange cheesecake..mm yummy..
tried carving our names on it but this time..
it was harder..
coz there was a hole in the middle of the cake..
aww man..
maybe next time lah..

^_^

then prayed at a nearby mosque which is just beside a cemetary..
wont tell u wat happened though..something freaked me and her out..
so after we were bored at vivo..went to harbourfront next..
where we had late lunch together..
after that..
sat at the singapore river and took more pics..

then went to pray at an underground mosque..
ahh love that mosque..
its so quiet..
so peacefull..so nice..
then after that..waited for her to finish her prayers..
then something funny happened..
wont tell u what happened either..
hehe..

so..walked back to the esplanade and then..took last few pics..
^_^
ahh..it was getting late..
for her..
then suddenly..she got cramps..
on her foot..
hehe..
aiyoyoyo..
aniwaes..sat down with her for a few mins..
wow..i felt ur pain man..
wow..im thinking that ur pinch was equivilent to the pain of ur cramp..
haha..
so.. continued a slow walk to the mrt station..
on the mrt she was screamin in pain
lol..then i tried to help lah..
it actually worked..
hehe..what my father thought me in the past actually worked..
^_^

aniwaes..a few stops passed..she started to feel less tense..
im thinking her cramps already subsided..
then she was getting all lethargic and all..
so i offered her my shoulder..
hehe..its the least i could do..
wont elaborate on what happened..
=P

so..when we reached woodlands..
took a bus ride with her back to her house..
not exactly to her house lah but only at the bus stop..

__________________________________________________________

i know you're mad at me..
im sorry..but i want to make sure you get home safe..
because u were all tired and i cant bear to let u off after u had that cramp attack..
sorry i had to defy u just now..
i was just makin sure u get home safe..

^_^ sorry..


aniwaes..she taught me something today..which is..
never leave your prayers..
thank you boo..

i'll keep that in mind..

ouh if this helps..
i remembered one of my uncles lived nearby..so i dropped by and did my maghrib there...
ouh and ishak too..
^_^

im so sorry i defied u earlier.. please forgive me ok?

ouh and the pics rite..
i want!!!..

^_^ hehe..

after today..
i think 14 4 4 much much much much more..
^_^
hope 4414 much much much much more too..

hehe..
had the time of my life today..

thank you..

awoosh out!!!

we'll miss you..

today, marks a day to remember in my life..
and the life of 4..

as we witness..
kak 'atiqah's farewell to pursue her studies in brisbane..

i dont have pictures of the memorable event but yeah..

wow..although she wasnt part of my family..
i felt that she is still part of my life..
and as she walk through those gates..
i could feel this feeling of sadness..
i knew that someone great was going to leave..

all i can say is..what's done is done..
and i wish the very best for kak 'atiqah with her studies..
may u have a safe trip to brisbane
and may u have a pleasent year ahead of u..

______________________________________________________________

so..i witnessed the farewells of kak 'atiqah with 4 just now..
wow..
when u cried i really wanted to be beside u and you know..comfort u..
but i was scared of what ur sister/brother/parents think..
im sorry if i didnt comfort you..*sigh..so pathetic..

but i had a great time meeting ur family membs.
especially ur mom,1st sis ,ur abg aizat(correct me if im wrong) and your grandmother..

hmm..i didnt get the chance to meet ur father though..i only saw him..
we never talked..
but im sure he's a great man..
ur mom is one excellent woman..
lol..i think i saw her smile at me..
then i smiled back..
lol

hah..
so tense!! i mean i nearly had a nervous break down when you said your mom wanted to meet me..but u know what?
at first i was like..ouh crud..
then after that..
i felt..
ok..hehe..
meeting ur family was the best..
ur family not bad..

^_^..

_______________________________________________________

after all the tears..

4 and family went to eat and they went back..
so it leaves me and das..
so we went to catch a movie..
coz we were so bored..

we watched percy jackson and the lightning thief..
so cool..
aniwaes..

gtg now..

taa!

awoosh out..

we'll miss u kak 'atiqah..

RED HOT CHILLI AND TOMATO SAUCE!!

OMG..

u totally blushed just now..
u turned red like tomato..

wow..

1st time u blush infront of me ah..

^_^ hehe..
well, u know wat they say..

first time for everything..

but seriously ah..

i stunned when u told me about the dream..
lol..
and u know what?
i blushed and smiled to myself all the way home when i thought about it..

wow.. you really made me and urself blush now..

hehe..

hmm..

maybe some day..

someday..

i'll do it..

but..

umm..

think

we both would like..

explode in shyness..

hot tomato sauce all over our faces..

wow..

thinking about it is already starting to make me blush..

OMG..

im so pathetic..

-_-..

forgive me..


awoosh out with hot tomato sauce!!!

yessa!!

i managed to make your day!!

woot..

and..

i got pinched for that..

-_-

sorry..
but hey..where's the fun if i dont tease you?
hehe..

=P

its great to see u smile again you know..
after monday and yesterday's moody look u put on ur face..

^_^

1444..

awoosh out..

hey 4..

sorry i couldnt be at my best today..
sorry if i wasnt there with you just now..
sorry if you went home alone..
sorry i couldnt do anything to cheer you up..

i've not been myself lately..
since yesterday..
im suffering from headache and im coughing like mad..
during band just now..

my energy was drained..
i couldnt even lift my head up..
wow..
im so beat..

well, the sweet i gave you was all i have in my attempt to cheer you up..
hope you enjoy it..

well..

i'll not be onlining msn today..

nidda get some rest..

this is just a short post..

awoosh out..

sorry..

like a morning dew that quenches the land
you lifted my spirit and brightened my day
you came into my life and became a friend
you girl,are unique i must say

girl you are the best
always having a little zest
cheer me up you never fail to
then,i'd fall in love with you boo..

carving our names on delicious cheesecake then,
took a vow our hearts will not be broken
good memories i promise,i assure you
then you'd say, yes awoosh, i promise too

i've been in love with you for 4 years
we've been through hardships and shed loads of tears
i feel the love between us growing more and more
when you say 4 4 14 and i say 14 4 4..

love fills the air when im around you
it is divine and priceless too
this poem shows how much i love you
and hope you'd still say you love me too..

i'll make you smile on your darkest moments
giving you the best of my comments
now your heart is with me,and you, with my heart
and nothing can bring,or tear us apart..

take good care of my heart
for i'll take good care of yours

1444,4414
awoosh out..

hey peeps!

today was a dame dame dame dame fun day..

hehe..
it started out dull..
boring..

but then..4 started things off with a smile on her face which never fails to brighten up my day..

then the irony starts..

it started to rain..

-_-..

aww man!! my plans are ruined..i thought to myself..

so..at 4.14p.m(the best time of the day)
it didnt stop raining so we left the school..
and we were drenched in water..
soak to the bone..

4 was shivering..
haha..
cant say i wasnt too..

anywaes..
took one round on the bus around sembawang with 4..
and she told me a couple of stories which had very very very very inspiring moral..

but the best of all was:

that time 4 and aqmal was going home after they took one round around sembawang..
then when they reached infront of canberra primary,aqmal spotted the ice cream man..
so he was hesitating whether to buy or not to buy..

then? whats the moral of the story i asked 4..

she replied: if u go one round around the bus,dont eat ice cream.

i know wat she meant but i decided to make things abit funny..
then..

she laughed so so so so hardly..
poor 4 had stomach ache laughing so hard!!
then, out of nowhere the ice cream man appeared at the window of the bus!
how ironic can that be?
then we both laughed..i mean..she laughed..
coz she told me to shut up..
hehe..
wow
that moral must be the most inspiring quote i've ever heard..

if u dont get the moral..u are not that bright..

aniwaes..this was the best day ever..

and its day 5 of 4-ing 4..

^_^

i 4 you so much 4..

^_^

awoosh out! 1444!!

to 4..

today was "the" time i've had with u..
i mean..
woah..
this is like the 1st time..
we went out together and had fun..

hehe..
ouh and about the cheesecake?
hehe.. hope you enjoyed it..^_^
1444!..

^_^

aniwaes.. had RHYA meeting today..
4 followed me..
and we had loads of fun..
although 4 was kinda..coughing here and there..
go eat cough syrup lah..

aniwaes..

i hope you dont get scolded again like last time..

ouh..and didnt i promise you that today we'll make a great memory?
hehe..^_^..
for me..this was the best day ever..

thank you 4..

^_^

awoosh out! 1444!

14 is still in 4 with 4..
hmm.. 14 will always 44..

haha..

like equation like that eh??
haxhax..

well its a code..
try to figure it out!..

=P

ok so..day two of..4-ing with 4..
and..
i can say that it feels so different..
i mean..
i've never felt this alive before..

wow..

thanks 4!!..

i 4 4 so much!!
ok..im over reacting..
haha..
ok..
relax fird..

if you peeps are wonderin what the hell am i going on about
4 and more 4 and then 14..
well.. like i said..
its for me to know and you to find out!

^_^..

awoosh out!!

off to my art hmwk!!

btw..

amaths rocks!!!

4 rocks as well!! ^_^ <3