today was absolutely positively delightful!
ok..i think i exaggereted on the english abit there..
ouh well..an attept to strenghten my english..
EPIC FAIL..

muahaha..anyways..
today was the first NCO briefing and judging by the looks of things..i think im pretty siked for this camp..
hey look on the bright side..i met some of my pri sch fwens!! alrite!! rifqi and bernard!!

woot!!..
anyways after the whole thing, got my balls pummelled by dada's heavy bag..woah..the excruciating pain!!!
dada still can laugh some more..sheesh!!

aniwaes..came back to the band room..and..well..it was fun really..then go home..

at home..
finally chatted with someone after so long..
haha
chatted abt some of the problems i was facing and yeah..
had a really great chat..
u rock lah..habes habesan nyer..
muaha!

thxz for being the listener..
finally i could voice out and be heard..
then talked abt crap abt the sexuality lecture in the morning..yeah..
u were so hyper!! muahaha!!

so i'll just end off here i guess..until next time..!!
peace yall's!

awoosh out!

problems/challenges

these problems i have..
they are just too..
too..
gah..
words wont do good explaining it..

my family cant help..friends cant do much either..
i need someone to hear my call of distress..
i need a listening ear..
i have had enough of listening..now its my turn to do the talking but there is no one to listen to wat i want to say.

i cant express them in words..
showing u wat i mean is just no use..
i just need to be heard..

already thought of losing hope..what's the use?
people take me for granted and step all over me..
and when i lose abit of steam they are scared and say im too fierce.
i've had enough of that bull shit..
you want me fierce? i'll show you how fierce i can be.

i have had enough of u..
wish i never met u..
did u come into my life just to ruin it up for me?
i am not affiliated to u..
stop calling me bro..
i am not ur real brother..
just an imposter..
thats what i am..

awoosh out..
p.s..this post is not to school friends..
so friends from school..ur safe..

for now..

A forgotten memory lost forever.

i was walking around in woodlands yesterday after band..
probably around 8+..
roaming aimlessly around the area and..
i took a deep inhale
and sat down..
i looked up and there were stars..
countless number of them..
and i realised that where i sat on brought back those memories..
the good old times..

life was much easier..much more relaxed..
and despite all that..i cant help but be a kid u kno?
well..ofcourse i always wanna have fun..but still..
i had my boundries..

so i looked at the time..its was like 12.30a.m..
wow..flashbacks made the time pass so fast..

the time where i discovered what it truely meant to be friends..
it was hard because being children,we are often too naive and selfish to care abt the ones we are close to..
primary school days never looked better..
i just wish i could turn back time and re-live those glory days..

*sigh but too bad time doesnt wait for anyone and im way out of that..

love at that time was puppy-love..it was all fake..
hah..just crushes everywhere..
for me..just mind my own business..i wasnt interested..
with all these puppy dog love..there's bound to be complications..
from someone as dumb as me..i became very smart in advice giving and relationships..the reason being alot of my friends come to me for advice..
being a great advice giver..is just me.

the problem is..i cant solve my own problems..
how do u give advice to an advice giver when the advice giver cant solve their own problems..?
how many ppl u know is a great advice giver..who u can share everything with and solve problems? very few i can say..
not tryin to brag or anithing but i am a great advice giver..^_^..

and ppl cant help solve my problems..
its not that they are incapable or anithing..its just that..
they just have not experience my pain.
experience is what makes a good lesson.
learning can only take place through experience..

awoosh out..
pity no one could help..