dammit!! just dammit!!!
what the hell is wrong with me!!

i just cant seem to find a peace of mind anymore!
ppl are just bugging me with lame comments and stupid responses!!

Just S.T.F.U lah..
i've had enough bullsh#t for the past week..
cut me some slack will you?!

what have i done wrong to all of u resulting to this?
WTF is wrong with you ppl..
becoz of ppl like u..
i had to control my anger and stay silent..
and punch the wall every-single time i came home..

i just couldnt let my anger out on u ppl..
its called RESPECT..

i respect u guys so thats why i dont want to blow up but..

DONT YOU DARE LOSE THE RESPECT I HAVE FOR YOU..

its by those little things you do to me that makes me pissed.
juniors..i know you guys dont know me that well as compared to the seniors..

i hate being push around.i definately dont like being treated like sh#t.
when i want to move.i move. its not your job to make my decisions
DONT YOU DARE TRY TO MOVE ME AGAIN..

im really sorry i had to post this but..i really cant stand it anymore.
you ppl are adding stress to the enormus chunk of stress im already facing.
exams..

*sigh..
dammit..

today,
i dont know why but as the days go by..
i start losing control of my anger..
im enraged by something but,i dont know what is it that makes me
sorta agitated..

so yeah im pretty pissed off over something but its like being pissed off for nothing.

so, as for those who dont know me well enough..i hurt myself when i am angry.
either mentally or physically.
punching walls was getting old so..now i've started to do mace work instead..
its much more fun than breaking your own knuckles..
and besides..its more painful..especially if u catch it wrongly
double flip does the work pretty nicely..
me likey the feelin of pain..
it soothes me..somehow..

i know u think im a psycho freak who loves to hurt myself but its just how i deal with my probs..
different ppl have different approaches to solve their problems..
its just that..mine's abit painful..

awoosh out..
so the outcome of wat i did leads to the destruction of the mace and blue-black marks and swelling on my hand.

so yesterday was the first day of raya and seriously seyy..
the hari raya mood..
its gone..
i dont kno y but it feels very dull this year.

aniwaes..yesterday i seek forgiveness..
and u wanna kno wat happened?
i ended up giving a speech..
OMG!!
aniwaes..i think my speech was like so uber touching that..MOM CRIED!!!
i saw tears in dad's eyes!!
aahh!! wow! i hope thats happy tears..
so basically i said that im sorry for the times i made them feel disheartened for the actions i did. they were the best parents in the whole wide world.they have thought me well. thank you for guiding me to where i am today.

blah blah blah continues the speech...

and yeah..
wiped the tears off my mom's cheeck, told her i loved her and kissed her cheek.

well..kinda touching i guess

haha.. i love them so muchies!!

To: Faisal Bin Mohd Isa and Siti Faridah Bte Omar.
i love u!
and thank you

awoosh out!

YO everyone!! check it out!
its hari raya!!
OUH.EHM.GEEZ!!
its finally here!!
woots!!

but..i believe its not just abt collecting money during hari raya.
NO.
i believe its abt seeking forgiveness for wat u did wrong and hope that they will accept ur apology with an open heart.

hari raya is a speacial occasion. when u ask for forgiveness..make sure it comes from ur heart.

take care my fellow muslimin and muslimah..have a happy hari raya celebration.

ouh! before i go!

selamat hari raya! maaf zahir dan batin! saya,md firdaus amir, harap semua orang yang membacai blog firdaus ini akan mengampuni kesalahan yang firdaus telah melakukan atas diri mu. membuat kamu marah,membuat kamu sedih,cakap yang kurang baik tentang mu dan banyak lagi.sekali lagi..maafkanlah dosa dosa ku.
sekian,terima kasih

have a great hari raya celebration peeps but remember to stay safe.

awoosh out!

hey peeps!

check this out!!





CHEESCAKE!! yummy!!
this pic was taken at coffee bean after me n some band membs went for the band performance at victoria concert hall!.

so i was chattin with farisah just now and basically..we talked abt cheesecake! and i got to kno that she's a cheesecake addict too!

i mean cmon! who could resist the great taste of a great cheesecake? well unless ur lactose intolerant..-_-||| sux to be u coz u cant enjoy this delicious treat!

so we talked abt the different kinds of cheesecake and umm it was alot of fun!
well, chattin with farisah was great!
its feels great talkin/chattin to a happy go lucky person.
it makes u feel that there's a sudden change in ur atmosphere!

haha..aniwaes special thxz to farisah for the wonderful chat!
u rock sista!

well thats all from me..

awoosh out! enjoyin cheesecake!
muaha!

so today was a start of the new term and i think it went well..

the best part of the day is the CLD period which was to cover up for the assembly.
its abt the will power to succeed.try.fail? try again..and again and again..

and mr chong posted this question to us.and i find it rather cool to think abt.
the question is: if u die today,wat would ppl remember u for.

and i was like..umm..idk..
and i cant remember wat i wrote but if u ppl out there read this can ya just type down in my tagboard,wat would u remember me by wen im gone.

off to my hmwk!

awoosh out!

happy b.dae to farisah amirah!

hmm..september babies..uncommon..
-Qin
-Farisah
-my beloved uncles!
-one of my unties

OMG! thats all?!

lol fine lah watever..

happy b.dae to u all!!

you see.. the problem with this generation is that..

WE TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.

what do we take for granted? let me break it own for u.
- time: you all act like u own time. so free.wasting time like its nothing.

- love: commonly abused. you think that u are so handsome/pretty and nothing else matters except ur bf/gf.alot of ppl out there arent loved.they're alone. stop disposing ppl like they're ur toilet paper.

- money: for those who are working,u can feel the pain.as for those who dont.dont keep askin money from ur parents! dont u kno it hurts? try giving $10 to ur lil bro/sis for them to go out with their friends.atleast do something so that the money could be like a reward.

-studies: some of u ppl out there are working ur ass off.the others..slacking. yo ppl. suffer now enjoy later. ever heard of that saying? dont enjoy now..its not worth it. perhaps enjoy wat u can now.

-resources: handphones,mp3/4/5/6 watever..laptop,internet,psp,nitendo and watever shet. arent we wasting precious time when we could do other productive things? i understand that u wanna relax sometimes. quote "SOMETIMES" its not 24 hrs a day ur eyes are glued to the screen.

-parents: you think that they'll be there for u forever.taking care of u.spoon feeding u every step of the way. well i've got news for ya..they arent.so stop kidding around and grow up already.be matured.help ur parents instead of them helping u.

so..there are alot more things that we take for granted.

we are spoilt. we are different from prophets time.
how i wish i could have lived in those era and not suffer here.

awoosh out

its friday!!! ahhh!! 3 more daes till school reopens!!
and basically..

i love cheesecake.

yeah..mmm..cheesey..=)

so. i need someone to accompany me to the library to do hmwk!! i cant concentrate at home!
its too distracting.. -_-'''

anyone? anyone at all?

i cant finish my hmwk with these crazy maniacs running around the house!!
its too maniacal!

well..

thats that..

awoosh out!

its friday!!! ahhh!! 3 more daes till school reopens!!
and basically..

i love cheesecake.

yeah..mmm..cheesey..=)

so. i need someone to accompany me to the library to do hmwk!! i cant concentrate at home!
its too distracting.. -_-'''

anyone? anyone at all?

i cant finish my hmwk with these crazy maniacs running around the house!!
its too maniacal!

well..

thats that..

awoosh out!

hmm.. u guys noe wat? i found out something rather interesting lately..
and u knoe wat? i think imma try it..
lets see if u can figure it out..

so.. tdoae is wdsneady and im berod..
usaul..

so..nth esle to do..
i cllaed up my czzuie and aksed if she wntaed to chlil..
so we dediced to do our hwmk fisrt befroe we wtcah a mvoie..
gussed wat we wtcah..

G-FORCE..
ctue lil giuena pgis!!
lvoe it!
hgihly recmomneded for cihlrden udner 10..
its feraikn fnuny!!
and atcion pcak as wlel..


well this is the end of my post..

its different huh?
well.. can ya read it?
it looks giberrish but u can read it!
just rearrange the letters!
well..actually..some dude from god knows where found out that if u find a word..for example ' LOVE '
leave the first and last letters alone and switch the two letters in the middle like ' LVOE '
you would still be able to read it!! cool huh? muahaha!!


so.. ocne aigan i wuold like to say hppay b.ade to my czzuie CQIN.. u rock sista!

aoowsh out!

paece!

hey guys!

so,lets get started.
yesterday went to Qin's house..
it was her burp.dae..
and..i pity her..

coz..her life was so freakin hard!
i mean..now..if one of her siblings fail one freakin subject..
they cant go out..
coz..thier father/my uncle..refuse to drive.

bummer..
so,im greatful for my parents!! i wuv u guys!

speakin of parents.. hope ur mom recovers soon 'arifah! dont worry! ur mom will pull through insyallah!! hai!

aniwaes..today is tuesday and..IM BORED TO DEATH!!

currently chattin wif my "adek" azilah..
coz she's bored and im her main source of entertainment now..-_-'''

so..going to youtube now to watch laughing babies..
i donno why but its so fun..

awoosh out!

so.. 2 more hours of fasting before breaking fast..
well..
basically..cant wait..haha
so..counting down..
2 weeks more!!

ok so current events..

im so slacking in my studies!!
i really have to buck up!
i mean..really stop fooling arnd and really study my ass off..
i really have to mug!
and..its easier spoken than done..
well better get started..

this one week i wont slack no more..
hope i wont..

i must pass my exams..
i MUST pass my exams..
I MUST PASS MY EXAMS!!!

jia you awooshie!!

awoosh out!

hey dudes! ok so currently im in the com lab rite now.
y u ask?
we have to do 5 online quizzes!
yeah! 5!!!

waliao!
aniwaes.. luckily im done..
so now im wasting time with facebook and blogger..woot!
so..imma go off now..and have fun really!


awoosh out!