today,
i dont know why but as the days go by..
i start losing control of my anger..
im enraged by something but,i dont know what is it that makes me
sorta agitated..

so yeah im pretty pissed off over something but its like being pissed off for nothing.

so, as for those who dont know me well enough..i hurt myself when i am angry.
either mentally or physically.
punching walls was getting old so..now i've started to do mace work instead..
its much more fun than breaking your own knuckles..
and besides..its more painful..especially if u catch it wrongly
double flip does the work pretty nicely..
me likey the feelin of pain..
it soothes me..somehow..

i know u think im a psycho freak who loves to hurt myself but its just how i deal with my probs..
different ppl have different approaches to solve their problems..
its just that..mine's abit painful..

awoosh out..
so the outcome of wat i did leads to the destruction of the mace and blue-black marks and swelling on my hand.