so close to a meltdown

hey guys! awoosh here with not a post actually..i just want to vent my anger abit so..
here it goes..



just trying to control it..
just keeping it in..
i just cant..
words just cant describe the excruciating verbal torture..
the insanity of how painful the hurt is..

i've been keeping this in me for far too long..
it feels like im gonna pop sooner or later.
hurt,pain,sorrow,betrays,backstabs,denial,lies,griefs,scars.
just keep storing inside me..

u ppl dont care how i feel..
u onli care abt urselves..
selfish..
just like the world..

and everytime a person "cheers me up"
it only means that my meltdown would only get postponed.
it can never be vanquished..
u claim u got a lot of problems..
u know why? coz YOU ARE the source of the problems..

venting my anger here is not enough but sure is a good way..
to keep myself blowing my top infront my love ones..

and u have to make me so pissed off while im sick and not in the best shape and having a rather F*cked up day...

i tell u, one of these days..
one of these days..
*sigh..


well..im done..
hehe
*sniff..
great..im still sick..


awoosh out..