*sniff

lol..

sick!! yattaaa!!!

ughh..

aniwaes.. umm..

yesterday nite..
chatted with honey..
and yeah..
kinda "celebrated" earth hour yesterday..
lol..

and uhh..well..
had a great time chatting with her again..
after i lost my cool the other day..
haiyoyo..

aniwaes..

im droppin my responsibility as an abg ang..
i dont want to get involve in this mess anymore..
the only adeks i want to have are my own blood relations.
nothing more..
heh..
u all can handle urselfs..

you dont need me anymore..
bole lawan sama sama..boleh solve it sama sama..
im not gonna tell u what u should do already.
i dont wanna SPOON FEED you guys anymore..

Zw helped me to see this..
and honey too..

and i believe its for the best..
for both me..and u..

hmm..

^_^

now thats out of the way..

i want to take my medications now.
^_^

see ya!!

hey honey! get well soon yeah?

heh..

awoosh out!!

reasons why i got mad

ok.
reflection time.

what actually made me mad?

1) accused for doing something i didnt do.(again)
2) injuries starting to hurt.(again)
3) headache caused by the hot and humid weather(typical)
4) sick because of the constant weather change.
5) got scolded by star before chem AEP.(again)
6) rough play during TAF club.
7) stressed out about art.
8) juniors going home before i could have one last talk with them
9) 'someone's' attitude
10) couldnt concentrate during chem AEP.
11) forgotten to bring my ezlink card.
12) quarter masters not doing their job.
13) people keep touching my injuries.


well..i dont think anyone could be happy after this.
i mean..HOW COULD YOU BE HAPPY IF ALL THIS THINGS HAPPEN IN ONE DAY.
i couldnt help it. im sorry if i blasted out my anger at my friends.
my precious loving friends.

hmm.. guess i woke up on the wrong side of bed that day..
aww man..

im always in this situation.
need more self control.

*inhale..
*exhale..

will talk to you soon 'arifah.

im clearing my air that i breathe.

the dirty green has to go.

reflection closed.

awoosh out.

thank you.

today..hmm..i have to be greatfull to all the people.
who helped to..teach me a lesson.
a cold and hard lesson

mr star- you..ok..never thought me a lesson..well..maybe too much fast food is bad for one's health.i totally agree..
but..you gave me the time..to reflect..on my actions.
ouh and..i deserve it.thank you.

'arifah- sorry you had to go home alone yesterday.i really didnt mean to leave you behind like that.it was all my fault. i was so angry and frustrated and i..
sorry. i've learnt my lesson and..i felt what u felt just now..
coz went home without me just now..
hope we can talk soon. thank you.

adli- bro. im sorry if i said those things. i shouldnt have said it.i know.it just came out and i couldnt control my mouth at that time. im really really sorry if i hurt your feelings whatsoever.im sorry bro.please forgive me.thank you.

das-thank you for hitting my injuries. it really made me feel the pain. just like how i made honey feel when i was angry.i shouldnt have done what i did.thank you for making me realise that.


thank you all.

i promise. i will change. to be a better student.colleague.accoplice.friend.loving friend.

please accept my sincere apology

i promise it wont happen again.

honey, im sorry.

awoosh out..

NO MORE SADNESS..IN WITH THE GREEN OUT WITH THE BLUES. THIS GREEN DUDE IS READY FOR A NEW REVOLUTION.

TIME TO CHANGE.

yesterday's CLD lesson.

star talked about self control.

what does self control mean actually..

it means.. tryin to control your anger and not let anyone notice it.
it means.. tryin to control yorself from being angered by others.
it means.. tryin to keep your blood cool when angered.

hmm..clearly..i have not fully mastered this "SELF CONTROL" business.

hmm.. i've done reflecting.
took the whole morning to do it..

i really dont want to be the one getting angry
and the one who losses it all at the end of the day.

i will practice self control.

sorry.

off to subuh.

awoosh out.

unbelievable..

officially lost my mood again today..

*sigh..

stupid..stupid..stupid..


hmm.. wont say i'll be better tomoro..

today is so effed up..

*sigh..

hope you have fun without me..
studying with him and all...

he's onli gonna make my blood boil more..
i dont wanna risk it..its either i sit there and ruin my day further..
or i just go home..take a breather..

you dont wanna go home..ok..fine..
i go home myself.
no worries..
its better for me..

i dont want to get angry anymore..

besides..

i need sometime alone..

i need the whole of tomoro..
to reflect.

*sigh..

today really..ugh..

its ruined..

unbelievable..


wont utter a single word tomoro..

awoosh out..

give me space..

for one day.

SUPPORT.

today, hah! HAD A GREAT GREAT AFERNOON..
even though..
started it off like...
SHET..

haha..

honey, sorry uh if i never talk to you yesterday.
coz i look at u and u were like..
SO SO SO angry/ frustrated..
yeah..i know its becoz of... yeah..
but u look at though..u wanted to kill someone..
its like.." dont talk to me or i will kill you" look..

wahaha.. sorry lah..yesterday..actually i wanted to have a chat with u after school
but then..u hilang..
disappeared.
lol..
im sorry if i didnt talk to you yesterday.
it was entirely my fault.


so..today..did art with honey..somewhere..
hehe..then she was singing..while doin work..
so i turned off my ipod and listen to her sing..
great voice. haha..from sec 1 seyy..
=D
then looked at paintings..
alot of them are either about christ..or they were...EHEM..
honey would know..

heh!

aniwaes..thanks for a great day.
and the pinches as well..^_^

i would also like to thank tiara for the slaps..
the beats.. she gave me just now after school.
thanks.


1444

awoosh out!

im really grateful to have you.

never fail to bring me up when im down.
never fail to make me green when im blue.

thank you.

i thought about those words you told me.
its true.
i've been too hard on myself just to finish off the work.

i suffered intense confusion at the start of the day
causing me to..lose my grip..
and leading to be so confused.so lost.

thank you for bringin me back to reality.
i guess..u just found me.the me i was searchin for.

thank you for all u've done.
im really really grateful to have you by my side in times of need.
thank you for all you've done.

alhamdulillah..for havin u in my life.

i love you my honey.

^_^

thanks for makin my day..

awoosh out.

GET READY FOR A NEW REVOLUTION THAT WILL MAKE HISTORY. LOOK OUT WORLD.HERE I COME.

hmm..

i dont feel..

like..

O_O..

ughh..that's bull dung..


*slaps face...


im not losing my grip..

i think you are..but i just hope u arent..
i dont wanna lose u..


okok..

im confused..

i need some help..

hmm..=/

im appearing to lose my mood..

i dont know why..

but i have a feeling..its because of you..

no..not you..

YOU..


=/

aniwaes.. im gonna find myself..


haish..last day of holidays..

BUCK UP FIRDIE..

awoosh out..

no more i love you's..

home alone..again..

HAHAHa... seems like im home alone again..

LOL..

good..


aniwaes.. today..
hmm where should i start?
hehehe..

LIKE FINALLY GET TO MEET..
lol..after one week of not meeting..*Duhh..
T_T

hehe.. great day..great day..

haha.. especially the hot air/water rises and the cold air/water sinks
LOL..laugh like..wooh!! giler..
NYEHHEH..

haiyoyoyo..buat physics..ish..
for 6 hours? LOL..
NII LAH..ketawa ketawa..

sape yang start dulu?!
aku juga..-_- lol..


WOWZAAA!!


thanks for a great afternoon..

and the walk! hehe
never had one of those in a while..
hehe..

and the time we got speechless..
and the time the apek nyanyi karaoke..
and the time we counted steps..
wahahaha..

thanks.

^_^


1444!

awoosh out!

missing you too much.

i cant help but think about you..

guess im just missing u..
ALOT

*sigh..i just wanna see your face again.
i wanna hear your voice.
hmm..

feeling so lonely now..

*get a grip lah awoosh..
uggh.. sometimes i sound so pathetic..
hah.. i know..
i guess..its kinda typical for me to feel this way..?
heh..
yeah..

i cant help it ok? so this is what it feels like to really..
really love someone and miss them when they're gone..
hmm..
wow..

come home soon honey..i wish to give u a big huggY!!!
-_-..
now i can just hug the gift u gave me.
^_^
thank you honey. u take care.
have fun
_____________________________________________________

wahahaha... okok..time to concentrate..
brr..*slaps face..
alrite.. here we go!
well..

hmm..

lets see.. ayam penyet gave me stomach ache..haha..must be the sambal..
=/
today..project meeting..
CH!!

wahahaha..
and uhh..im talkin crap..so..
imma get going now..

hehe..


awoosh out!!

AWW!! here come's the missing part again..

AWW MAN!!!!

honey's going off to mersing..
for two days?

*sigh..
baru jer balik dari batam..-_-..

hehe..

chatted with honey..just now and..
WOW..
she misses me too!
hehe..thats a first..
usually its like..hi awoosh welcome back..
but..now its like..
AWWOOOSSHH!! i miss you!!!...

wooh..okok..
*calm down..

its just that..

I MISS YOU TOO!!!!
=P

and now, your turn to go off?
the agony begins..
wahahahaha!!

i'll try to not think of u..
but..im already missing you.
-_-..

haha..
okok

will keep my mind focus..

have a safe and delightful getaway honey..
i will await your arrival..
in two days time..
^_^

14444444444444444

hehe..

awoosh out!!

BACK FROM BATAM!!

WOOT!!!

ahh its great to be back!!

HOME SWEET HOME!!

*INHALES..

ahh..good old warm..sunny and humid singapore air..

wahahahaha!!

i see someone misses me..
MUAHAHAHAHHAHAA!!!

I MISSES YOU TOO!!!..

actually..

i got really sick on the second day because i was missing 'someone' too much..
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
i know..wierd..
that's what my mom told me..

nii mesti rindukan orang tau ni..
as sick as i was..
i tried to deny it but..

she gave me 'the look'..

lol.. mum's.. can never fool them..

lol.. well, i learnt my lesson..

3 days seems like three years eh?
wahahahaha.. guess three years just flew by in a blink of an eye..
hehe..

wahhHH!!

i miss you really badly!!

I WANNA HUGGIE MY HONEEYYY!!

but i cant..=/

ouh well..

haha..

alrite..so, already got away..

am i relaxed yet?
no, not really..no..

O_O..haish..

ouh well..
got to get to work now..
hah! here goes..


aww man..gonna miss those times..
those commands..

pancaragam! sedi-a!

ahh... good ol' times..


awoosh out!!

I MISS YOU!!!

thank you.

hey SW!

thank you for the memories.
thank you.
i'll always cherish them.
when im lonely.
i'll reminisce..
back to the time..
i was still in the band.

you guys changed me into what i am today.
and i believe..that..if it wasnt for band..i wouldnt have met you guys.
and if it wasnt for band..i wouldnt be what i am today.
thank you all.
yesterday wasnt a sad occasion.
but tears were being shed.
please fellow band mates..
dont cry.

instead wish us the best for our future endevours.
because..we really need it.
but..thank you for shedding those tears. it shows how much you cared.
about me. about the sec 4/5. about the band.
thank you sembwinds.

i havent had the chance to talk to my sec 1's yet. i'll think i'll talk to them the next band pract. ^_^

______________________________________________


OMGOSH!!
im going batam!!
today!!
in the morning!!!
aww man!!
im gonna miss my honey really badly..
>_<

well..i'll be gone for three days..
hehe..hope my lil sister dont go missing again..-_-|||
wahahahahahahaha!!!
aniwaes..
honey, take care of yourself.
i'll see you soon.
enjoy your holiday ok?

hehe..

i love you.

awoosh out! and off for three days..
see ya soon!

AHHHHH!!!!

HONEY!!!!

IM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO

SORRY!!!

aww man!!

hey honey, its wasnt you..

^_^

its something else that was.."givin me a hard time"

im sorry if i walked ahead and faster leaving u alone..
IM really really sorry..

>_<

pls forgive me..


btw honey, if u want..i'll wait for u at woodlands mrt at 12.30pm
thats if..u want..
if you do..
pls call me in the morning to confirm that we're meeting..
then i'll share with u what happened today..

if u dont want then..uhh..
its ok..
i understand..=(


^_^

1444!!

hopes 44142..

^_^

awoosh out..

SOORRYYY!!!!!!

honey..

thank you for making my day by making your day..

O_O..sounds kinda wierd..

i guess its a win-win situation huh?
u brighten up my day..i brighten up yours..

hehe..

thank you honey..

i love you!

______________________________________________


me and honey went to R.p today..
haha..

it was the second time we went there together..
and it was the second time i made her laugh until her stomach hurts.until her heart nearly bursted..
wahahaha..im sorry if i made u laugh so hard..

^_^..i know my singing sucks lah..
but next time dont cry..
or faint for that matter..

=P.. teehee!!

1444!!

____________________________________________

well..me and honey talked about.."missing band"
well..
to me..i will miss band..
but i have to concentrate on 'O's..
sorry guys..
but i will pop by every once in a while to check on things..
^_^

ouh..i know u guys are probably missing ur seniors and thinking that after achievement day they'll be gone for good..

RELAX!!

we're still in school!! hehe..you'll still see us around in school..
so..
chill yeahs?

teehee..

=P


awoosh out!

that dream..

OMG..i dont believe it..
its another one of those dreams again..

ughh..

u know..those extreme ones..

like the one during art camp..

-_-..

aww man..im sorry if im having all these dreams..

guess this shows how much i love u i guess..

^_^

man..


*sigh..i know..

i sound mighty pathetic rite now..

but its no joke..


*sigh..

astagafirullah..

astagafirullah..

astagafirullah..


1444

awoosh out!!

love you.

my heart..

i feel that..
its filled with grief and sorrow..

im actually having this feeling..
from after school onwards..
or after maths lesson rather..
this is very wierd..
even for me..
then honey gave me a strong nudge with her orange file..
which kinda got me abit startled and lost focus on..my grief-thinking..
thanks honey..
but..after assembly..it started again..
*sigh..
but then..no more honey to wake me from my daze..
so..im trapped again..
ugh..

am i actually feeling the pull of stress?
or am i going through another depression..
hope im not..

no time to get depressed now..
argh.. cant wait for the holidays to come..
so that i have time..
to rest..calm down..rejuvinate..and refresh myself..
starting fresh..

*sigh..awoosh..what's the matter..
why are you like this all of a sudden?
aww man..

somebody save me from despair..
i need help..
im spiralling into depression..
slap me or pinch me or something..

wake me up from this horrible nightmare!!!

*sigh..
so down..so blue..so sad..so depressed..

=(..

awoosh off..

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

art camp

daymne fun!!
hahaha..
wow..a whole camp dedicated to our art stuffs..

so..cool..

haha..

well..at night it wasnt..
lol..sick and tired of doin art..
hehe..

honey thought so too..
haha..
well..
so..

she borrowed my ipod and listened to it..
wahaha..come to think of it..she's using my ipod for like..88% of the time.
wow..
hehe..

and by 1a.m we were like..ughh..so bored..
and honey continued painting while i stare at her paint..
coz..i didnt kno what to paint!
-__-..
typical..

soon,2a.m came..haha..
i was constantly drinking water and i guess my friend for the night was the toilet..
i drank alot..i repeat..alot of water..
haha..

then after that some chinese boys awoke and decided to do some exploring..
around the 3rd/4th floor of the school compound..
so..they dragged me along..

haiyoyo..just go lah..

i freakin love thier reactions lah!!.
epic!
they were like..eh fird,u scared anot?
ehh fird..my hair standing sia..u not scared ahh?

i was like..*sigh..
whats to be afraid off?
then i knew that it was the perfect time to give them abit of scare..
haha..
so i took that time to scare the shet out of them..
haha.

then benjamin was like eff u fird!!
heh..sorry ah..

then went back to art room..

hmm..

soon got bored again and then..
ajak honey for a walk along the hallway while we chat..

hmm..pretty different..but..i like..

haha..thanks for the talk!

then blah blah blah..

slept for awhile..and had a dream about honey which was totally wierd!..
extreme giler...

ish..

astaghfirullah..

i guess that's all..
if not my post would be uber long..-_-


trust..without it..what is love..?

rhya meeting 3rd march

lol..well, it wasnt quite a meeting lah..
more of like a chit chat session..

but yeah..
what zack de zest said..
we only see our rhya peeps ince every month..
so..must cherish while they are still here..

haha..well,

X_X..the main highliht of today was what me and 'arifah talked/joked on..
wahahaha..
ouh..btw..

thanks eh 'arifah?
heh..thank you so much for sharing your blessings..
i can still feel it lingering on my cheek..
heh..

thanks for great time lah..
______________________________________________________

hmm..didnt go for the parade rehearsal today..
wonder how it went..
hmm..

hope das didnt screw up..

______________________________________________________

ouh yeah!!! tomoro presenting the harp to mrs raja and im the one addressing!
ouh crud!! where's my script?!

ahhh!!!!!


awoosh out!!

thanks again..

ok..umm..?

okok..so uhh..

today..was..umm..
whats the word..

hmm..

typical?
yeah..
normal?
sort of..

aniwaes..

usual lah..after school..go eat lunch..
with shahrul,zw,das and those dua mambangs..
wahahaha.. klah..adek angkat's..
yeah..

so we chilled at the canteen..
making stupid remarks..
and crackin some senseless jokes..

aniwaes..

hmm..TAF cub today was superb..
haha..totally fun..
never will i miss taf club..
this one nt like last time..run 2.4 km route 2 times..then go off..

BORING

this is like extra p.e lessons..which is so cool lah!!
hehehe.. p.e three times a week..
wow..excellent..

aniwaes..

L.F walk out of the gate too fast..wahahaha..
didnt had the chance to say have fun with her piano theory and goodluck..
i think she's havin a pre-test?
im not sure..
but if she does..then
good luck..i wish u all the best!
GAMBATEH!!

hmm..i dont study piano..
the only place i learn how to play it is youtube..
that's the best place..

hahaha..and its FREE..

hahaa!!

alrites alrites..

i guess that's all for today..

gots to go finish art..
haha..

off i go!!

awoosh out! =P

1444

heh heh heh..

aww man..
im getiing more and more lethargic every day..
not getting too much rest lately..

i WAS supposed to get rest..get rejuvinated during the weekends..
but..
heh..
had to go out with family..

yeah..so lethargic..!!
so tired...

aniwaes..

yesterday,
after band..went to mac with my lovin friend to meet our beloved seniors..
you know, elena and pamela ofcourse..
yeah..

we chatted..and..yeah..had some fun..
just a casual chat session if u were to ask me..

so while they were talking..
i took loving friend's student handbook and read it..
wahahahahaha...

W.O.W..
heh heh heh..
guess i wasnt suppose to read it eh?
wahahha..
oops..

haha..

well, atleast i know..

hehehe..

1444..

hmm..


1444444444444444

wahahahaha..thats more like it..

lol..

aniwaes..


i guess that's all..

haha..
alrite!!

awoosh out!!