sooner or later..

hmm..

bali..

well..
thanks to today..

im not anymore excited about bali..

its just..the mood just disappeared..

*sigh..

sadness aside..

WEEE!!!

few more days..
few more days left WOOTT!!!
ughh..
1..
2..
ugh..
what come after 2?
O_O..
ughh..
4 more days till i woosh off to bali!!

bali..balli..balliii..bal-e..bal..ihh..BALI..barli?barley!!! =D

ok lame..uhh..

im totally excited bout it..

ouh yeah..

last overseas trip for the year..

its gonna be fun !!..(i hope)

okok..

so gonna start packin tomoro..
and hope it goes well.=D

________________________________

ouh and about ur book 'arifah..
2 more chapters..
=D
thanks again for lending it to me..
very inspiring..and meaningful..

and yeah..sad sad mood + me = one dull dude..

haish..

aniwaes!!

WEEE~!!!

BARLEY!!! WOOTT!!

awoosh out!!

AIRPLANE, HERE I COME!!

or was it aeroplane?
O_O..

ponder..

uhh..

so moody..
the clouds are not helping..

they loom over me just raining down pain and hate and drenching me in sorrow..

i feel..
disappointed,angry,useless,sad,confused and puzzled..
what a wrong mixture of feelings..

people around me are so negative..
in the end..
im the one getting influenced by them..

so moody..

uhh..

nightmares every night dont seem to soothe my grief and sorrow..
it contributes to my sane suffering..
im left alone to fend for myself..
my friends are....

*sigh..

so far apart..

back to primary school eh?
to the old times..

suffer alone..

no one cares who i am..

im not outstanding..

im not special at all..

im just..indifferent..

i just cant escape this pain..

even when im happy..there is still sorrow lingering around my aura..
all i can do is fake my feelings behind a facade..

i feel useless..
i look useless..

well..
i guess that i am useless..

this is another depression session?
no..
its just my reflection of who i really think i am..

im not emo..nor am i egoistical..

i dont fit in neither categories..

im just..

*sigh..

i dont have a dream anymore..
all i have is..nightmares..

awoosh out..