ponder..

uhh..

so moody..
the clouds are not helping..

they loom over me just raining down pain and hate and drenching me in sorrow..

i feel..
disappointed,angry,useless,sad,confused and puzzled..
what a wrong mixture of feelings..

people around me are so negative..
in the end..
im the one getting influenced by them..

so moody..

uhh..

nightmares every night dont seem to soothe my grief and sorrow..
it contributes to my sane suffering..
im left alone to fend for myself..
my friends are....

*sigh..

so far apart..

back to primary school eh?
to the old times..

suffer alone..

no one cares who i am..

im not outstanding..

im not special at all..

im just..indifferent..

i just cant escape this pain..

even when im happy..there is still sorrow lingering around my aura..
all i can do is fake my feelings behind a facade..

i feel useless..
i look useless..

well..
i guess that i am useless..

this is another depression session?
no..
its just my reflection of who i really think i am..

im not emo..nor am i egoistical..

i dont fit in neither categories..

im just..

*sigh..

i dont have a dream anymore..
all i have is..nightmares..

awoosh out..