haters gonna hate, bakers gonna bake. awoosh gonna study.

describing today in words.

1) WET
2) COLD
3) Headache
4) COLD(i know..i said it already.. but its sooooo COLD!)
5) merepek.
6) (negative words)
7) (positive words)
9) tired
10) sleepy



hmm.. im using the com to find out meanings about some new words i found while i was reading a book earlier today.

interesting..

expanding my vocabulary!
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today was great! except for the hole in my 3 year old (dying) converse shoe i love soo much which constantly keeps filling up with rainwater.

when i got home and took off my shoe.. only god knows the things that were inside my shoe..

UGH!


and my foot look like a dead person's feet. sooo pale and wrinkly and cold and...lifeless..



speaking of lifeless.. just reactivated my fb account a few minutes ago.


and yes.. the only word to describe that "popular/ever-expanding" social network is 'dead'.

hmm.. lets see..


i look through everyone's profile..


most of them post about their problems.

hmm.. since when did facebook changed its name to RANTbook?

i mean.. its called a social network for you to socialise..

not to tell the world how much your life sucks etc etc..

=_=..

besides that, i realise how much of my life has been wasted through that.


i mean, why were handphones created? TO CONNECT TO PEOPLE.

why'd you need facebook for when you have handphone??


to chat with people? call them, easy.

private messege them? send them a text. done.

friend cameo?? VIDEO CALL THEM. =_=

games?? i think handphones have better games than 1000 games in facebook.

because facebook is free? WRONG. when you use facebook, you use it on your com. when you use your com, you use electricity, when you use electricity, you pay money. which is way way way way way way way more expensive than normal phone bills.


facebook goes mobile? why? waste memory space. and it defeats the purpose of a phone. =_=




after being without facebook for so long, i realize that.. actually, its just a waste of time. =/ not generalizing anything..

im just speaking with a free thought of my opinions.. other people may think otherwise, maybe they havent feel it yet. hmm.. we'll let time show facebook's fate.


newspaper articles say that facebook is losing users.. hmm.. im not suprised.


and again,

" ACCOUNT DEACTIVATED "
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so, this is june the 30th.

which is known as the last day of the month.

so, as i've said, im going to use the com til the end of this month and will not be online till the end of the year and so, i will stay true to my words for myself.




no more blogging, no more youtubing, most certainly, no more facebooking.



from tomoro onwards, smart-core studying initiates. hard-core studying is not my way of studying.. smart-core is. <-- made up.


gonna start studying smart starting tomoro.



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lastly, imma stopping work at the end of july.

so i can concentrate for two more solid months till it begins.


half the year is gone, time to put every ounce of effort for the next 3 more months..


believe. be strong. be faithful.


insyallah.



assalamua'laikum.


awoosh out

YOU... i remember you. the one who started my fear.

just a quick lil update on whats been going on today.


hmm.. as usual, daily same-old's, same-old's..

but,

i got a lil sick during the last few hours at work..

now, im running a fever and having a bad headache..

=/


ANYWHOOO..


while i was in the train returning home.. this girl entered.

when she looked at me,
the memories rushed in.

i remember..
i remember.. those piercing eyes.
i remember that look..
i remember her name.
i remember, her threats..
i remember, the wounds she caused with the bullets she shot through her mouth.
i remember, the insults.it still plays in my mind.
i remember, how long i tolerated her endless demoralizing speeches.
i remember, how insignificant i was to her.
i remember, how she treated me like dirt.
i remember, the tears she caused me to cry.
i remember, how she made me feel scared.
lastly, i remember, how she made me think girls were heartless monsters and have no mercy in the likes of people like me. my fear.

the stare she gave me in the mrt, i knew that she remembered the torment she gave me.
i know she remembers.


however, im done with the past.

i've let go of the past, im not afraid anymore. sec 1, thats where my life changed when i met a girl. not just any ordinary girl. a girl, who accepts what i am. who turned my life upside down and helped me conquer my fear just to get to know her.

now, she's always there for me. always there with a helping hand. im grateful.


this extraordinary girl whom have helped me,her name is 'arifah 'aqilah.

and i love her.



to the girl, i used to hate you in the past. but that was the past. i've learned to forgive, though i will never forget.



hmm, i guess you taught me something about life afterall.



awoosh out! time to rest... ZZZ




(hmm.. till now, i dont really know why she hated me so much.. =/ well, somethings are better left unknown. =) )





ooo... throbbing in my head... burning in my veins...

get well by tomoro awoosh... =_=..

jakarta/green lantern with das!! and a few words on the people i miss most.

DUM DUM DUM.....

it is SAT-TUHH-DAEY NAIHT!

and im back here on my blog to post about my did's for the past week or so..

time for an update!


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so, recently, i've been to jakarta for a 4 day vacation from singapore..
so, i'll describe each day out of the four days in a few words then i'll explain.

day 1 -> mom angry.bad bad day in jakarta.
day 2 -> rides galore at jakarta's own replica of USS.
day 3 -> a drive through... ZOO??!
day 4 -> *breathes in* stooopitindonesiancustomsofficerholdingthefamilybackcausingustomissourflightandhadtowaitforanotheronejustbecausemymaidhadtocreateanewworkerspermitiftheywereemployedasdomesticworkersoverseas.

(lol.. yessah, made one full sentence seem like one word! hah! not bad uh!)

ok so, day 1, mom was really pissed, at me? NO WAY... at the young ones..(awoosh goodboy *angelic smile* )

apparently, they were making too much noise and mom was disorientated from the jet lag which in turn causes her to lose her cool. nice going kiddos.. =/


day two was... AWEE-*wait for it*-SOOOMMEEE!! i mean.. whats not awesome bout theme parks??
extreme rides pumping up the adrenaline.. wozzazz!! you should here what my adik sounds like on the ride.. xDD EPIC.


day three, OFF TO THE SAFARI WE GOO! was stuck in a heavy jam for two hours! the trip there totalled to about 4 hours! WOWZAZ! half of the journey was great!(yeah, only coz i slept..=/)
when we were there(at the zoo), i NEVER thought i'd see the day where you actually enter the animal enclosure..BY CAR. yes.. BY CAR! I WAS LIKE HOLY CRUMBCAKES!! THOSE ZEBRAS HAVE NICE MUSTACHES!! and those mascara on their eyes makes their eyelashes standout! SO LOONG! very very cool, and yeah, got to ride on an elephant, a camel and a horse! though my crotch has abit of problem with it.. =S


ANIWAESS.... day four! went shopping!(though i never bought anything..=/)
and yeah.. thats all for day four.. everything i wanna say about day 4 is already stated above.. ;D

ouh... i should mention about the time we went to the superhero street where all the shops have their own superhero. xD superman has his own shop..spider man too.. even macdonalds!(wait..he is a super hero..right?) and while walking down by the road.. some idiot in his car thought he could manouver his car and avoid the traffic by driving near the roadside where i was.. guess he didnt realise how big i was when the whole left side of his car hit me causing me to "fly" a meter to the front. lol, lucky for me, no serious injuries.. actually, nothing was broken.. nothing was bruised, no scratches.. no blueblacks no swelling.. NOTHING! alhamdulillah nothing serious happened.. but it did make quite a loud noise when we collided.. people behind me who saw it..their jaws drop coz after i got hit, i just shook my hand and kept on walking.. people infront of me turned to see what happened.. mom was shocked.. dad was abit frantic.. xD chey.. awoosh muscle seyh... tsk... i think walking down a superhero street gave me some super powers.. xD heee...

ok end of jakarta story.
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so, today, was bored at home.( AT 6 AM IN THE MORNING AFTER SUBUH PRAYERS. =_=)
felt like going out.. but didnt know what to do!
thinking about watching a movie but dont know what to watch!
thinking about who to invite but have no idea who!
then, i remembered, DAS!!!!

after i bumped into him a few weeks back, i made last minute plans with him for a movie!

woohooo!!


WATCHED MY FAVOURITE SUPERHERO IN ACTION!!! THE GREEEEENN LANTERN!!
SSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COOOOLL!!!!

i mean the only words to describe it is just. WOW.

xD a must watch for all. even if you dont like the colour green or.. flying man in thights..or..flying man in green thights.. =/


hahaa!! but before the movie.. went to play some pool with das ;D well, i beat him 4-1 ! WOOH!
damn.. during the game.. screwed up loads and ended laughing our booties off at each others failed attempts to get the ball inside the hole! xD


after the movie, went window shopping for shoes. *drools* so..nice...xD

and lastly, had dinner at burger king.. NACHO WHOPPER IS DA BOMB! =DD

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hmm.. speaking of da.. i miss davina.. =((

hmm.. speaking of missing people.. i miss 'arifah..

speaking of missing people i love the most in this whole wide world, i miss.. their voices..

their sweet voices... from dada's extremely contagious though irritatingly excessively salivatious laughter, to 'arifah's innocent and cute yet sarcastic at times yet loving and caring and that "ouh awoosh is so merepek" look giggle..

i miss you ladies..
i miss you more than a child misses his teddy bear..
i miss you more than a teenage boy missing his black ops..
i miss you more than all of justin biebers songs can express,combined..
i miss you more than all the songs about missing people from all over the world from different languages no matter english,malay,chinese,hokkien,cantonese,french,pinoy,german,indian,tamil,punjabi,bollywood,hollywood,american idol put together!



(i know american idol isnt a national language.. =_=)



i wish i will be given a chance to see you again.

insyallah.


to my loving younger sister from the different mother, davina, i hope i can meet you soon and make you laugh like theres no tomoro and beat the record for the longest laughter ever while making you spit missiles of your salavation. <3


to my loving friend, my dear whom has showered me with great love, 'arifah, insyallah, we will again see each other and who know's? we could even start meeting again like we used to as usual on mondays and/or thursdays after your school and after my work! insyallah.. pray hard. and ask Allah for guidance. he will show you the way insyallah. <3



well then, this concludes my ridiculously long post for this week..

hmm.. looks like im getting comfortable with updating my blog with new content on saturday nights.. hmm.. maybe i will start from today onwards! =)

stay tuned for more "long as hell" and "merepek" posts from me!



phew...

my hands are tired.. =/


and im still typing... =_=


ok...awoosh... stop...typing..


NOW....


hm......


i dont wanna...


ouh wait.. yes i do..


xD


i've just wasted 14 seconds of my life by doing this..

and you've just wasted 20 seconds of your life reading this!


HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!


nice.

im sorry..


i'll go now.



awoosh out!


1444 <3

JAK-ARRR-TAAAAAAAHH!!

well, counting down to my flight...


its gonna be 5 more hours.

=))


im excited for this trip! maybe its coz it gives me time off from work and daily negativities.


its gonna be a good break. ^_^


hmm.. after i get back.. gonna start with renewing my singpass and getting started on registration for NS... =_=... such a bad timing seriously..


and.. yeah.. soo... its the holidays!

for.. 4 days only..

ahaha.. mehhh... 4 days pon jadi lah..

alhamdulillah..


hmm.. i've been off from facebook for about 2 weeks now... and i dont feel the urge to reactivate my account...


wierd..


guess i've rid fb out of my system! thats a good thing!..


now that i've finally gotten the "urge" to do maths questions...

AHAHAHA!! SOOO FUNNN!!!



ok.. so, hope this year will be the last of this madness.


gonna set things straight. and make things right. for a better future!


INSYALLAH!


then,maybe one day(insyallah), i will meet again with her.


dear loving friend, i hope you are doing well. =)


all the best for your upcoming endeavors!


we will meet up soon one day insyallah. ^_^




till then, take care alright?

^_^




hee..



well, seems like i wont be "leaving" the com until the end of this month... soo...


nahh.. wont be reactivating fb.. =/ maybe i'll just read through my old blog and see what i can remember.. ^_^



awoosh out!!



OFF TO JAKARTA!


WEEEEEE~~!!!

3 more days till jakarta trip!

yessah!


alhamdulillah! dapat juga getaway from singapore during the holiday...



cant wait for that! =DD




=))))



awoosh out!


wooo.. 14 days of no com.. =)..



yay... now.. lets try.. one month without com.. =DD



ready? GO!!!


awoosh out!

and it begins.

im off till end of the year.

no more messing around. no more distractions.no more wasting time.no more.no more.NO MORE.



im gonna set things straight.

i screwed up before, i wont screw up now.

everything's on the line.

too much is at stake.

i've spent the last couple of days preparing myself. mentally,physically and emotionally.

im done with all thats happened.

FULLSTOP.


O Allah, most gracious,most merciful, i pray for you to provide shelter for the ones i care for, from evil,from harm,from lies of this world.please shower them with your great tides of blessings and strengthen their hearts and soul so that they may continue to serve you with purity in their heart and mind. Ya Allah, give them strength to overcome any hardships they face while im away.i pray that you would provide them with everlasting sustenance and forgive them of their sins both past and future for you are most merciful,most forgiving. YA Allah! all praises to you for bringing these souls into my life. i am extremely grateful for these gifts. O YA Allah, the one i live for,the one i die for,lord of the 'alamin, please..please protect them.



Amin. Ya Rabb al-'Alamin.


assalamua'laikum.


awoosh is gone.