YOU... i remember you. the one who started my fear.

just a quick lil update on whats been going on today.


hmm.. as usual, daily same-old's, same-old's..

but,

i got a lil sick during the last few hours at work..

now, im running a fever and having a bad headache..

=/


ANYWHOOO..


while i was in the train returning home.. this girl entered.

when she looked at me,
the memories rushed in.

i remember..
i remember.. those piercing eyes.
i remember that look..
i remember her name.
i remember, her threats..
i remember, the wounds she caused with the bullets she shot through her mouth.
i remember, the insults.it still plays in my mind.
i remember, how long i tolerated her endless demoralizing speeches.
i remember, how insignificant i was to her.
i remember, how she treated me like dirt.
i remember, the tears she caused me to cry.
i remember, how she made me feel scared.
lastly, i remember, how she made me think girls were heartless monsters and have no mercy in the likes of people like me. my fear.

the stare she gave me in the mrt, i knew that she remembered the torment she gave me.
i know she remembers.


however, im done with the past.

i've let go of the past, im not afraid anymore. sec 1, thats where my life changed when i met a girl. not just any ordinary girl. a girl, who accepts what i am. who turned my life upside down and helped me conquer my fear just to get to know her.

now, she's always there for me. always there with a helping hand. im grateful.


this extraordinary girl whom have helped me,her name is 'arifah 'aqilah.

and i love her.



to the girl, i used to hate you in the past. but that was the past. i've learned to forgive, though i will never forget.



hmm, i guess you taught me something about life afterall.



awoosh out! time to rest... ZZZ




(hmm.. till now, i dont really know why she hated me so much.. =/ well, somethings are better left unknown. =) )





ooo... throbbing in my head... burning in my veins...

get well by tomoro awoosh... =_=..