heh, yeah, its been awhile since i was here =)

not saying im back but.. yeah.. something to keep me occupied rather than being bored to death i guess..

hmm.. currently not in the best of shape,state,mind,spirit..
im not really sure why but i believe its due to the fact that im bored..
and that my manager is only accepting me next week
(that is..IF the other part timer is busy.)

bored out of my wits..

sitting at home does not benefit me in any way.. i go for evening jogs frequently..
however, its just only to clear my mind.. =/

i cant believe im saying this but, ouh how i miss going to school..being around friends..getting scolded by teachers..hanging out after school..going for band..
gosh..
now.. i feel like im trapped in my own freedom.
slowly dying in misery.

the only thing that keeps me sane is chatting with 'arifah.
but the sad fact is.. she's not around during the day coz she's schooling..
and im left alone to entertain myself till she onlines..
however, when she onlines.. im afraid to chat to her coz..
i feel like i may be disturbing her..
=/
and.. since im very irritating..
im afraid that i might ruin her night
which only affects her performance the next day..

ouh why..ouh why..
=(

anyways, yeah.. i love her very much.
even though i dont get to chat with her daily like i used to..
or even meet her and see her beautiful face like every single day..
my heart still beats strong for her.
my love only gets stronger with each passing day.

i hope she sees that..


^_^

awoosh out..