MIND-BLASTING!!

SO MUCH HAPPENED OVER THE WEEKEND!! I JUST CANT POUR IT OUT RIGHT NOW..

SOOOOOOOO THE EXHAUSTED..

hahahaa..


i'll post it tomoro insyallah..

awoosh out! =DD

1/2 day work! AWE-SOME.

YESSAAHHH!! today half day of work!!


coz i told my uncle that had to collect my testimonial from school..

SKALI TESTIMONIAL BELUM DATANG.....


WADUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHH.......

best..
so nevermnd lah..

sat in school at watch them carry out their house meeting..

LOL...


nasib baik aman was there with me.. if not... BORING HABISAN PUNYA!

then ate cheesecake!!

AMAN BOUGHT FOR MEEE!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA >:D

but then shared it with imran and izyan..

FUYOOOHH..

they ate 3/4 of the cake seyh!!

=((

hahahahahaaa...

then played the piano for awhile..

thats pretty much my day..

ouh and tricia bought for me another cheesecake as a super belated birthday present!

=DD aww.. thanks tricia!

time to enjoy.. ;D

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so.. after i got home.. i was roaming through facebook on the daily reminders page.

and then i found this -> http://www.iloveallaah.com/book/en_Do_not_be_Sad.pdf

and i was blown away.

WOW.


astounding find =DDD


i think im gonna print this and read it at work when im free.. =DDD

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well.. thats all for today..


and yeah.. boss and big boss said : hmm.. you are not meeting our expectations.

me : ouh.. =( im sorry to hear that..

them : what are you sorry for? its because you have exceeded it.. your standard of work is very commendable. if i can say so, you are even better than the full timer themselves regarding the PDI standards. you raised the standards to a whole new level and we expect you to maintain it at that level.

me: *speechless* *nod nod* yes sir.. i'll do my best. =)

them : keep it up =)



hahahaha.. you just dont know how much this made my day yesterday...


xDD




awoosh out!

a perfect sunday.

now concludes a perfectly good day i've spent doing maths.

hahaha..

not bad muhammad firdaus amir! 6 hours of nothing but maths.

*pat pat*


ahahahahahahahaaa!!!!


ahhh.. its nice..

the weather's neither too hot nor cold..

just right.. ^_^


so..delighful.


well..its the end of the week.

only a few hours left till a new week starts..

and work continues..

=/

hmm.. nonetheless.. IM EXCITED! =DD

time to go pack up for tomoro.


^_^


awoosh out!

Eye Loafer sow march. eat hertz two sea err sat. =(

yesterday was a really beautiful day i spent with myself.

watched RANGO! so cute!! =DD

makes me want to get a lizard/chameleon for a pet.

so adorable!!

ahahahahaaa...

good movie..

and i learned a new quote from that.

" NO MAN CAN ESCAPE HIS OWN STORY "

it means that, whoever you are in this world, you cant be someone else. you were born in this world for a purpose. you cant just fake your way through life pretending to be someone you are not. even if you do pretend to be someone else, one day, you will encounter an incident where you question yourself, who are you? and when that day comes.. you do not have the answer. you are born in this world to be yourself. not other people. so live life to the fullest in your own shoes.


quite meaningful ^_^

coz..in the movie.. rango, he didnt know who he was..

mixed identity...

then he lied to be someone else to gain popularity..

and then suffered the consequences..

throughout the movie.. the quote lingers from scene to scene.


a must watch movie.

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now for abit more serious blogging.

when i got home today

'arifah seemed so down when i chatted with her. =(

she told me that her phone is not with her and that mission was accomplished?

im guessing that her mum took it because... maybe she saw the messeges i sent her?

hmm.. but why did she say that "mission is accomplished"??

does she mean that all this while she actually wanted her phone to get taken away??

hmm..

then we talked about me and her not meeting again..

and at that moment.. my spirit shattered.

my happiness was at a complete zero.

negativity filled my numb skull..

*sigh..

i was struck with grieve.. =/


but i hung on to three words to keep me going through.

" ITS NOT OVER "

i kept repeating those words in my head to keep me sane.

i kept my cool and continued to chat

and what started out from a sad chat in the end became a fun evening with my awesome dear.

i wish we could meet up soon.

its her i find solace in.

and besides.. i need to pass her the can lids.. xD

hahaa.. last but not least..


thank you for mentoring me for the past weeks..

it may not be much, but i appreciate your effort to help me.

and when i say that you are committed.. i meant..

you actually took time to actually take 1.5 hours off your busy schedule/rest time to actually make time for teaching me. you had the choice to say no but you still said yes into teaching me. and i was like i dont want to make life harder for you than it already is, but you still wanted to teach me..

im touched lah 'arifah.. i really am..

without you, i wouldnt be able to get through the O level period. without you, you know that i wouldnt have learned more about islam than i already know (which is not much)

without you, i wouldnt have tried searching for schools that i could make it in like for example psychology school and the MDIS thing..

without you, i would still be that boy who is afraid of girls..

without you, a cheesecake would never be the same coz it brings so much memories every bite.

without you, i wouldnt be sexy right now because of the regular walks we had during secondary school life.( lol )

without you i wouldnt have gone to chinese garden and eat chipsmore and bushuk-ing all day!

without you, i wont be what i am today coz you are one of the people that has significantly changed my life for the better!

and finally without you, i wouldnt be able to be a man and tell you straightforward my feelings towards you and realize true love.

thank you loving friend for all you've done.

seems like the only other communication system we can use is msn.

however, its already good enough ^_^

well..thats my story for today.




awoosh out!!

ouh and i didnt had the chance to say this to you yesterday so...


i love you 'arifah 'aqilah! ^_^

be strong girl and dont give up..

tough times dont last, tough people do!! =DDD

my patience grows thin.

*sigh..

my happiness is plummeting..

melvin starts his crap again..

made me rush here and there and at the end..

made me confused about what to do.

and better yet, it delayed me on getting the taxis ready for them to be checked out.

damn..

i was raging through my work yesterday for time.

i vaccumed,polished,wiped,clean and checked all 8 cars in 30 minutes.
(usually takes me 1.5 hours.

i guessed i used my adrenaline from my frustration and use it to fuel my work done.

hmm.. =/

but i still need more self control.

i need to stay calm.


then when i got back from vivo.

i checked the events page for the sembwinds outing..

WHAT...THE...

WOW.. everyone MAYBE going.......

BEST.

and im the only one confirmed going..

whats this man??

if you dont want to go out you could just say it directly in my face right??

why did facebook even bothered to put a "maybe" button.. i dont get it lah..

its making it difficult for the organiser to expect the number of people attending the event..

so i guess.. im the only one whose gonna attend?

hah.. i can understand if you cant make it for some reason..

BUT YOU STILL PUT YOURSELF AS "MAYBE" COMING?!

WHAAATTT????!!!

thanks arh bro.

all the best for your competition by the way.


my patience is deteriorating..

last thing that pissed me off..

this person was supposed to help me with the sembwinds event.

i told him to manage the event page while i was away for work.

and coz when i get back from work i'll be super tired to do anything..

and this person is not even working. so he's all free..

AND THEN...HE LEFT THE ADMIN WORK ALL TO ME.

THANKS ARH BRO...


seems like i cant trust anyone anymore.

*sigh....

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on a side note,

i am grateful for 'arifah being there for me and making my day better.

hmm..

i need more self control..

thanks dear.
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this is where i end this post.

i didnt mean to hurt anyone in this post.

this is just me venting my anger.

so if anyone gets offended, i apologise.



awoosh out.

the continuation of my agony...

hmmm....

im soooo sad right now.....

soo..soo..sooooo sad...


i've lost my ipod..

MY OUH-SO-SPECIAL GREEEEEN IPOD......

NOOOOOOO......

i cant find it anywhere at home...

=((

it cant be at work...

coz i checked..i double checked..i triple checked..i quadruple checked..

to make sure nothing was gone..

but i didnt notice that it was gone...

aww mannn....


my birthday present of last year!!!


TIDAAAAKKKKKKKK!!!!!!


im super bummed now..


'arifah distracted me from missing my ipod when i met her yesterday..

had fun and merepekness..

then after she left..

i searched for my ipod in my pocket only to remember that i lost it..

=_=.. SADDD LAHHHH...


HOW CAN I LIVE WITHOUT MY IPOD?!


waduuuuuuhh....



it would be such a miracle if i found it at work tomoro..

but like mr chong said.. miracles only happen to those who get knock down by cars.

=(((




sadd.....



awoosh out..

thanks dear for distracting me from the sadness of losing my ipod..

SMILE ON YOUR FACE! HAH! I DID IT!

BWAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!


YESSSSSAAAAHH!!! TAKKEEE THATT BOSSS.... =PPP

YOU ARE HAPPY WITH MY WORK AND YOU KNOW IT COZ I SAW YOU SMILE...

HAH!!

wahh seyh.. tired..

today : scrubbed extra hard. polish extra shiny. clean extra.. finally paid off..

hah.. now he'll leave me alone coz he knows i can do a good job. ;D

nyehehehehhe!!

verrreh verreh verreh happy ^_^


thanks to 'arifah and my uncle \m/

love you guys very much!


hahaahahahaa...

wahh..soooo tiredd now.. barely keeping my eyes open..


hold on..let me get toothpicks..


....

....

....


ahh.. better..
^_^

ahh.. even more tired than yesterday..

guess it takes alot more energy to please the boss...

=_=...


thanks arh boss...




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'ARIFAH CEPAT ONLINE.... I IS WANNTS TO CHATTING WITH YOU!!!

cepat before i sleep infront of the com!!!!!!!


CEEPPPPPPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




xDD



awww.... ~_~...



awoosh out. great day today. ^_^

guilt.kills.me.inside.

FINE.I ADMIT IT..ITS MY FAULT.

now go wipe that disappointed look off your face.

staring me down wont make things better you know.

third day of work and you expect me to know everything like i've been working for 3 years?

dude.. give me a break lah. one little mistake, you give me that disappointed look.

i know im not quite reaching your standards..

BUT YOU HAVE GOT TO UNDERSTAND. im only human. i make mistakes.. im sure you do too.

but hey.. pick on the new guy? seems abit low for you.

i'll prove you wrong mr melvin.

i make sure i will wash your face till the only thing you can do is smile at what i've done.

im already doing my best. and being alone in a garage full of cars to check, wash, clean, polish, repair, paste stickers and vacuum.. is really quite overwhelming alone. and on top of that.. i have to stand by to take in more cars into the garage for inspection and also give details to halim whose at the office.

i am always to blame..

always the one guilty at the end of the day.

when will i feel liberation..?

i cant even take a short rest after doing work coz you always come in when im resting and saying that im not doing anything which in actual fact i have done all i was supposed to.

other workers say that im just sitting around doing nothing.. eyh..cmon.. its my first few days and im lost and dono what to do. after tomoro, dont be suprised if im working my ass off and skipping lunch times. coz i will show you guys what i am capable of.

i am a man of words. not the fool of talk.

belive me.

awoosh out.

(thanks for ending my day on a bad note.)

SECOND DAY OF WORK. X_X

wow..

second day of work.. and already very exhausted..

and i dont think the cause of my exhaustion is the work..

i think it must the be midnight movie i watched with my family on saturday night..

and also didnt have enough sleep on sunday coz got madrasah in the morning..

balik jer kene ikut ibu gi jalan till 10+...

and yeah.. must pack for work somemore.. then sleep at 11.45.

and with my stupid cough acting up again... it disrupted my sleep and i finally slept at 12.25am.

best.

then wake up at 5.45 for subuh..

and yeah..

TIRED LAHH...

and today was a bad day too..

due to my exhaustion.. i was abit cranky today..

my boss lah.. =_=.. do this..do that.. then say never check properly lah..

then never do things correctly lah.. and forget to do this and that lah..

O_o...DUDE. I CHECKED IT 4 TIMES..HOW CAN I NOT CHECKED PROPERLY?? =_=

never do things properly i can understand lah.. IM NEW! TWO DAYS OLD IN THE COMPANY ONLY!

and about forgetting to do stuff?? dude.. I DIDNT KNOW I HAD TO DO IT.. NO ONE BRIEFED ME!

....

no wonder people dont like their bosses..

ahahaa.. but i do.

yes i like my boss. he's dynamic in a way..

and bosses being bosses.. i think he set a high expectation for me.

no matter.. i will rise above it.

lol.. bosses...always bossing you around..

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anyways.. made new friends again from work today..

and also made friends with a couple of taxi drivers too..

xDD not bad uhh??
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hahaa.. gosh..i was soo tired that every time after prayers(zuhr/asar) i slept in the praying area for about a good 15 minutes.

so nice..

so peaceful.. =))


so yeah..thats today for the life of muhammad firdaus amir i guess.

i think imma go sleep early tonight..

too shagged already..



awoosh out!

madrasah + marriage?

hahaa.. apparently was discussing on the topic of marriage today at madrasah.

we were discussing on the different types of couples and their ethnicity etc.

different races marrying each other.. and the characteristics of a family.

then we had a little discussion called : what will you do for your family when you get married later?

everyone had turns to speak on what they would do for their future family.

answers :

i will work hard so that i can keep the food on the table for my wife and kids.
i will take good care of my kids and expose them to the teachings of islam so that they may be a better muslim and serve Allah.
i will do my best to provide them love and show them that i support them all the way.
i will be a good mother and take care of my children and husband.
i will be a good role model to my wife and kids.
i will die for them.


when it was my turn, i smiled and said : ustazah, i believe that i will protect them from harm. however, i will not die for them. its bcoz, they mean everything to me and why would i die for them? i wanna live because of them. the answers that the others have given are also what i intend to do for my future family because i will love them. i will teach them islamic values so that they may come closer to paradise.


then suddenly there was an awkward silence.
then, uztazah said : alhamdulillah, firdaus, your family will be closer to paradise insyallah.very good answer.


...

ahahaa.. i did not believe i just said that!..

i mean.. that was the first time i spoke with confidence in madrasah..

hahaa.. first time for everything huh??

i dont know.. i just say it from the heart..
and i truely mean what i say..


^_^..

hmm..what would my future family be like ehh..?

haha.. i think its up to allah to decide..

insyallah, it will be a bright future ahead for me..and my future family ofcourse.

^_^


awoosh out! =)

i love number 4! (not the one in the movie) ;D

what a lovely saturday it has been.

one word to describe it?

LOVELY

met 'arifah at woodlands library around 1+ after buying movie tickets =D

apparently she was with her study group..so..

quite awkward.. haha..

and they are abit... err.. shy..??

(maybe its just me?)

hahaa..

met bibik adik too.. xD

she ask : wah wah.. pergi mana nii?
me: ouh.. gi blaja jer ngan kawan.. maths..
she : eleehh.. ye ker? bukan dating??
me: O_O..err...erm..tak...asl pulak??
she: hahaha.. i know lah awoosh ;D
me: O_O..*gulp*
she: so where's your girlfriend??
me: *facepalms* err.... hahaha.. there.. *points to 'arifah. (-_-)
she: haha.. ok toodles my awesome nephew!
me: hahaa.. err...BYE!...

hahaa.. then 'arifah made it even more awkward...

hahahaa.. xDD

after that.. followed 'arifah for her lunch..

haha.. so cute lah she this part..

words just cant describe this awesomely CUTE part.. xDD

hahaha..

then we prayed together at the roof area?? (i think)

wow! interesting! first time for everything huh?? haha..

now i know where to pray when im at civic centre. =)

had a lil difficulty finding the kiblat but managed to find it in the end. ^_^

after that??

ON TO MENTORING SESSION WITH DEAR..

HAH! NAHH.... MORE LIKE LAUGHING ANS SMACKING SESSION... =_=

today was the longest time ever 'arifah laughed..

hahahaa..

and she made me got scolded by the guard patrolling the area..

=(((..

not gonna say what she said..

hahaa.. but it was quite funny.. xDD

hahahahaaa!!

then after that.. she made us "late" for the movie..

so she ran....WITHOUT ME.

WOW THANKS ARH DEAR! =(

hahaa.. then made our way up..

SEMPAT BELI POPCORN LAGI! WOOH!

skali baru masuk tempat tuu..then the movie start..

EXCELLENT TIMING SEYH! =DD

i think right.. they were waiting for the real " NUMBER FOUR "
to come..then they start the movie..

hahaa..

loved the part where 'arifah and i jumped at the beginning..

HAHHAAHAHA...PRICELESS!!

the movie was not WOW.. but just nice.. =))

hahaa.. dont really get the plot of the movie..

but it was a nice movie though.. ^_^

wahh..then at the last part of the movie..

'arifah ada hal lain pulak... HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAA!!! xDD

after everything end.. SHE RAN TO THE TOILET..WITHOUT ME...AGAIN...

hahaha...waduuh dear..

you arh... eeee....geram..tapi tetap sayang.. hahahaa...

apa tuu your friends say??


TTM??? hahahahahahaa...

waduuh..


was otw home and got a msg from her saying : it was a nice saturday after a week of setbacks. thank you dear.

and after reading it.. I SMILED ALL THE WAY HOMEE!!! WADUUUUHHH!!!!

MALU SEYH...orang semua tengok ingatkan orang tuu gila...


xDD AHHHHH.....



a very great day spent with a great friend. <3 thank you for the day 'arifah 'aqilah. you will always be my NO.1 number 4 =) awoosh out! i love you! 1444