being deaf.

im starting to feel what being deaf feels like.


your surroundings begin to fade as if the world as you know it goes mute.

im having a hard time getting use to my half my audio taken away from me..


maybe its because im an audio-oriented person..

i believe my life will be in agony if i were to be permanently deaf.

how can i listen to my favourite songs??

im gonna miss hearing azans... im gonna miss listening to surah's being recited.. im gonna miss the voices i live for.. the voices i love. my family's voices.. 'arifah's voice... my friends voices..

=((

but, if i were to go permanently deaf. only then will i know. who truely loves me. they will be the ones always on my side guiding me through this tough ordeal. if allah wishes to take this sense from me. let it be. im happy to give it away. coz, i've still got others to compensate for it. if i were to be deaf, i know. i know that allah wants the best for me. he doesnt want me to listen to all the lies of this world. he wants me to feel what is right from wrong.

allah tests me with obstacles and hardships.. not because he hates.. but its because he loves me and giving me the best of life. he tests me so that i may improve myself. to be a better muslim. a better slave for him. yes i may be deeply shattered by my hearing loss.. but he does things for a reason. so, i accept this.


=)


i just want to listen while my senses are still functioning.. it may not be totally clear.. but whatever im left with.. i'll use it to its fullest. =)


allahu a'lam..




awoosh out. =)

i bid my final farewells to the audio world.